You don’t care your a kid I try and try and you just lock up well I’m done trying you’ll be sad when you see me with her knowing it could have been you fuck it I’m giving myself the happiness I deserve fuck you .
I do not deserve you I know that I wish sometimes I didn’t exist but I do love you kid I just really fucked up one day you’ll know but idk when that is hope we can be a family one day I’m so sorry for not being who I was supposed to sorry for fighting against the ones who cared most
You’ve come back into my life why you have a family a weird situation you were always the love of my life I’ve dreamt of the day we’d meet again and it’s everything I thought it would be I’m fucking terrified to put myself all the way out with a chance to fall harder then ever before :/ life’s a gamble it’s crazy but ill do my best.
Grandpa is really ill in the hospital had a minor heart attack I can’t imagine losing him :( . This is just adding to my depression I lost my job Im not happy in my life I’m a horrible father and a bad person I hate myself so much for never doing what needs to be done I’ve been so depressed lately I just want the depression to end I’m tired of it I do try hard really fuckin hard but it’s pointless the world is against me I can do no right I need someone to care I’m losing myself more and more everyday :/
remember whos been there by your side thru thick nd thin
Its funny how people completely drop there friends as soon ss they get a bf or gf be reall dont leave your friends who have been there for you for someone who just poped up i been really sad lately this sucks man .